Follow your heart...

I was watching the 9pm TCS 8 show.... and there is something which strikes me...
The sentence is : "If you don't know what to do or cannot make a decision, follow your heart..."

There are so many things I need a direction, need a hint, need a push....follow my heart? But follow my heart and what if my heart is telling me the wrong thing????

I want to have a change in career...try other stuff rather then fashion industry. Follow my heart??
This means I have to start all over again..can I??? Am I willing to start all over again with a low pay??? Can I allow my work experience gained so far go down the drain???
Can I follow my heart???

There are certain impt pp in life... some of them, would nv know that they have a special place in your heart all these while unless u say it out. Should this be known?? Would it affect whatever that is good presently?? Do not want to risk it unless things can turn out better or the way I want... Can I allow myself to express how I feel?? Can I follow my heart???

I like this Coach bag very much..been eyeing it since dunno when....but it is super super ex. Still can afford with my savings...but... is it worth it??? Can I follow my heart and just buy it? Will I use it frequently or just buy it and chuck it aside??? But yet I want it so much... Can I follow my heart???

Sometimes....when you follow your heart & do certain actions, things may not turn out what you wish and hope for. Should this risk be taken in the first place?
Hmm.... but if you dun risk or try, how would you know if things won't work out??? Maybe it will???

Arh!!!! Too big a headache!!!! Guess the best thing to do is to just remain the present state... cos me do not have the courage or confidence to follow my heart.

Shall continue working... look positive... and put on a smile as much as I can... be nice as much as I can... do not think of myself...think of others... maybe this way, I'll feel better... =)
See lah.....stupid tv show....made me think so much!

Heroes of the night!

We met at ecp...went to have dinner first...hungry!!!

After dinner....put on our blades...and started blading....
Very shiok to blade at night! Cooling and not so crowded!!! Listened to Class 95fm using my NK6280...so shiok!!!!
Then my friends started saying I'm anti-social...cos i cannot hear them calling me.
Oops!!!!
Sorry.....how can I be anti-social???? It's just that listening to all those nice slow love songs on Class 95fm, enjoying the sea breeze and thinking abt some matters...... =)

Blade blade blade....blade to the jetty!
Goodness....a girl fell into the sea!
At first, we thought someone had caught a big fish....cos there was a scream. Ran over there....and found that a girl had fell into the sea.

A big size malay guy jumped in to save her. But it was too dark and the tides were too high. Very difficult to rescue.
It was chaotic. Guys running around to throw bouys into the water....for the both of them to hold on. Seems like they getting tired. The girl seems unconscious already...
Another man jumped in to help...cos the 1st man looks tired already....
Now..there are 3 pp in the water to save. Goodness!

Alot of people just crowd around...doing nothing....this girl in front of me, somemore took out the phone to take pics. I feel like slapping her! Gloating at people's misery!
Suddenly, 2 of my friends, Kern and Declan, took out their blades and shirts.....pass us their valuables...and ran to help.
I was so shocked...but very very proud of them!

Was worried for them too....cos if they jump into the sea, it is dangerous as well.
A few guys form a human chain to reach for the girl in the sea. The ropes are too weak to pull the girl up.
After some time, managed to save the girl....HURRAY!!! The crowd cheered!!!
Then, slowly, pull those 2 guys up as well.

Wow....KERN & DECLAN ARE HEROES!!!!!!!

After that, we went on to blade....towards the golf course....so shiok! Up and down the slope....fast and breezy........fun!
Although it was scary going too fast...cos that Declan kept on cutting my lane....PURPOSELY!
He knows I'm carrying my new phone....and knows that I very careful that night....

But heh....thanks to him, my responsive time is better! Had to brake immediately when he suddenly swerved in front of me... hee..... stupid Declan! Get the cheap thrill of seeing me panick and scream "go away!"

And that Kern...took out his socks and started swinging. SMELLY!!! Hee...better buck up my blading skills.....so that won't get 'bullied'!
Mae brought brownies for us......so YUMMY!!! I want to learn how to bake also..... shall bake for my friends & parents!
Kathy so nice.....she drove all of us home one by one...although it's late and she is tired. Thanks!

AFter blading, we went to Sempang for supper....had pratas, chendol....wah.... =)

Good company, good people, good night!

Bargaining... 10points!

Shall mention my bargaining experience & how I bought my NK6280 (Black).

1) Was super sianz & bored after my work. So walked across to Lucky Plaza to check out the prices of the phone.

2) Ask many many many shops....all ah beng shops man.... then the price all so expensive. Then must plus this and plus that. Deals that are cheap, do not have this and that. Sianz....started from the top floor to the basement.... As I was walking....

3) Then came to this shop... like usual, I walked in to ask for the price. The guy very funny, he nv quote me a price. He just ask, how much I'm looking at and how much is the lowest that I've heard. Then I anyhow say....$650. Although the lowest that I've checked so far is $680.

4) Then surprisingly, he said 'OK...deal...for you.' In my mind, I was like..."siao liao"!!! I only checking prices leh...not intending to buy yet. But abit scared cos it's really ah beng ah beng... so I went on bargaining.

5) Asked if $650 is nett. Cos many of the shops quote lower price, but charge 5% gst and watever stuff later. Must be careful ok? He told me "definitely not lah. What is nett? I only know fish net!". Wah liao...he wants to play....ok lor...I play along.
So I replied "ah...like that I don't want liao...your fish net not good one. I want no extra $$, just $650 nett".

6) Looked at him pathetically (tricks that most gals use!). Then he said ... ok lah...after calculating his sums. I'm sure he still earn lor!
So I went on to ask if all the standard package stuff comes along. And request for a bluetooth headset! Hee...he almost fainted.

7) Think he buay tahan my whining. Then he just shook his head...and ok...give u.... I got this Nokia bluetooth headset free! Worth $100++

8) Hee hee...my fren also bought this phone at $650 at Chinatown. She told me the prices she checked is around this. But without bluetooth lah.

9) So...things to take note of when buying from these shops
- Is it reconstructed phones?
- Remember to check the standard package. Cos some quote low price & take out the items.
- Ask if the price quoted is NETT or still have to +++
- Normally, pay by cash or nett, the price of the phone should be cheaper.
- Always don't let the hp go out of your sight. Some can open the box for you, then walk away. They may change the new hp to an old one. Without you knowing.
- Remember they chop the warranty card.
- Normally, just mention you will come back to look for them or intro friends to their shop. So they will not try any tricks cos they also want to do business.

10) If possible, go alone or go with another gal fren. These shops...normally open by guys, they treat girls better. But make sure both girls can 'co-operate' well to get a good deal.
The last last time I bought my phone with my guy fren. No use one..... he also dun bargain....i want to bargain also cannot....

Another week!!!

At last...another week has passed..and it's my favourite weekend!!!! =p

Bought a new phone...Nokia 6280...think I must have felt rich.. hee....
But those friends that know me...will know that I spend when I'm unhappy...
But very happy with this phone...it has almost everything that I want in a phone:
1) Nice exterior
2) Camera (this very impt ah!!!)
3) Able to use data cable to transfer
4) Organiser
5) Radio
6) MP3
7) Video
8) 3G (who has 3G phones to use with me?? )
9) Bluetooth
10) Big screen

hee...AND I FINALLY can transfer pic from my old phone to the PC!!!!

Here are the pics which I owe ALOT of friends for a long long time...
1) With Adin at ktv, Ronald and Zhongqiang at MOS
2) East Coast Blading trip! (Mae, Gary, Kern)
3) Valentine's Day 2006 (Happy special moments!)
4) Another ECP day! But resting on the hammock... =)
5) Me & my bro XC, me & Ade, me & my 2 nafa pals, me & my mummy!
6) I must be so bored... hee hee..no...I must be crazy!!!
7) My colleagues at workplace =)

**All pics are small....if want, get from me the original big files... =)

It's worth it... =)

Brewerkz celebration...
It's ZQ's birthday party...

Hmm...when was the last time I planned a birthday celebration???
Skills rusty liao... hee.....

It was super super hectic....msn/sms all the jc classmates.....many can't make it cos the FYPs deadlines are drawing near...
Got 'dua' by a few also...shall not say the names =p
Then how???
Luckily got QK and FL.. =)
Thought it would be good to ask PL along too...in the end, AL/Ter/CC came too! So nice of them! =)
Abit worried that ZQ may feel awkward cos he only met them once....how how? But heng ah...things turn out well!

Present... another headache.... range from clothes /bags / sport items etc. Aiyoh! Finally, I thought a namecard holder should be useful... cos I remembered when I first got my namecard, I was very proud of it and had no place to put. =)
Wrapper also must co-ordinate...

But the wrapping....kena suan by ZQ....he say how come so many scotch-tape..... =(
Wanted to wrap nicely one....trust me....my wrapping skills not so bad.
Fri night came back too late, very tired.....Sat piah to teach piano till 7pm. After that have to send parents to aunt's house....then piah home again...no time to wrap...Got to wrap on the car... =p

Place settled. People settled. Present settled. What is the next? The most impt one...CAKE! But I really no time to buy...so called PL mei-mei to help me...luckily! =0
And they came up with the idea of smashing ZQ's face....hee...not me ah....! ^_^

Hee...went to KTV after that.... Had to find Happy Birthday Song..and make sure it comes out at the right time.
Had to constantly check the watch and pretend to be singing.. hee...so fun.. =)
Had to piah down and pretend to go toilet to light up the 'big' cake..
Timing must match the rest of the party upstairs...hee....Terence was helpful...he came to help me...cos i was not answering his 'alarm' phonecall...
Busy lah....doing the candles lah.. =p

Here are the pics... So glad that we all had fun! ZQ most imptly must be happy cos he is the 'Boss' mah... =o

Pic 1: PY & PL & ZQ
Pic 2: Beer Girls... =)

Real or Fake

Here is pic of my colleagues in the new place:

For those whom I've spoke to..poured my sorrows to....will know that this pic is fake.
Everything also fake......sigh.....
Take picture everyone can look and smile so happily....
Actually....I also fake....sianz.....

What is this world becoming????????

Tired...

It's been quite some time since I wrote something?

Hmm...been so busy....I really have no time to write....or rather nothing to write on.
New work place is busy... hectic...and unhappy.
SIGH...

Career is just a job....a job is just means of getting a living...
So what is something that I REALLY want to do? All along, I thought it was merchandising...now....I somehow feel that this drive is disappearing...

Rather, I want to be a childcare teacher, or be social worker, or just be a primary sch teacher. Such simple career.. I want...but to weigh the $$ and the satisfaction..which is more IMPORTANT?

Love this car recently : Toyota Sienta. Bright color and sporty look! Think it cost about $70,000++...
When can I afford it?
Maybe I work Mon - Fri office job. Then weekends, I piah tuition and teach piano...maybe I can afford the car liao?? Hmmm....

A pic of my dream car:-

I can imagine myself driving this cute car... hee hee... =p

work work work..busy busy busy

I'm starting to feel the stress and pressure at my new work place.
It is really very stressful......things are just 'thrown' at me....if i am slow to catch...they will look at me as if i'm stupid.
Too many things to do!!
The emails kept on popping out.....haven't settle one....and more are coming in.
The big big problem is... I have to struggle and swim on my own....to figure out what are the emails talking about.

These are the items that I'm handling right now:-
Teen Young - Woven Bottoms (for young girls)
Teen Young - Outerwear
MOM - Woven Bottoms (for young mothers)
MOM - Outerwear
Maternity - Woven Bottoms (for pregant ladies)
Maternity - Outerwear
Plus - Woven Bottoms (for big women)
Plus - Outerwear

Faint....really alot alot alot alot alot of things to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My mood : very very bad for this 2 weeks....many things building up
1) Unhappy in new work place
2) Doomsday is near... 8th March
3) My sore eyes
4) My Grade 8 Piano Theory exam on 11th March...I'm not prepared for it at all. It's like entering the battlefield knowing that you will suffer defeat....How to study in just a few days' time??? I really don't have the mood to study...
5) Skin peeling cos too dry... (just came back fr TW)
6) Lips cracking cos too dry... (just came back fr TW)
7) Not enough sleep
8) xxx
9) yyy
10) zzz

SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH

Hopefully this mood will end soon.............................. it's affecting me and how I talk to people....kept on giving the sianz sianz attitude...

爱，无力

this song of Kelly's is quite nice...
nice nice....anyone has this song? Pls transfer to me.. =p

爱, 无力

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞变成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚

我 只 想 对着天空轻轻的呼吸
寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力

其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴过来手心

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友

so fast so fast....at first I thought I cannot survive through ...but...time really flies...this coming 8th Mar...it's going to be 1yr anniversary liao...
I can't imagine how many things had happened in this 1yr....
My lifestyle COMPLETELY changed and everything is different now... well..at least in most of the areas...i think things turn out better.
Thanks to ALL my friends who helped me to SURVIVE through...help me to pull through! I am OK liao..it's going to be a new new start!!!! =p

although sometimes being so busy, being so occupied....when I suddenly slow down my pace...i realised...there's still this emptiness inside..deep inside..that I won't show it out.

when will this emptiness be filled? the KEY question is...when will I allow myself to let this emptiness be replaced with happiness??
It's not that I'm still holding on.....definitely not holding on.
It's just............
I do not have the courage to 'unlock' myself for letting new happiness fill in...
really do not have the courage...

scared.... =``(

Test taken...quite true leh

the Adventurer Test finished!

you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN. "I am happy and open to new things" Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world. How to Get Along with Me Give me companionship, affection, and freedom. Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter. Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories. Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am. Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people. Don't tell me what to do. What I Like About Being a Seven being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down being spontaneous and free-spirited being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun. being generous and trying to make the world a better place having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures having such varied interests and abilities What's Hard About Being a Seven not having enough time to do all the things I want not completing things I start not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship Sevens as Children Often are action oriented and adventuresome drum up excitement prefer being with other children to being alone finesse their way around adults dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up Sevens as Parents are often enthusiastic and generous want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You liked the test? so please RATE it :-) You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose AX Would you rather have chosen: BX (NINE) CX (TWO) AY (EIGHT) AZ (THREE)

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